Well! It’s almost exactly 25 years since I started on this amateur quest of finding a continuous field that could form particles, hopefully modeling the particle zoo. I learned a lot about particle physics work and came up with some ideas how things could work, and tested some of these with my simulation. I am now at post 200 on wordpress, although I originally began journalling my studies in a batch of notebooks back about 1993, then some previous blogging site for many years, then here on wordpress.
But it’s time to let it go. Actually making a contribution is way beyond my reach, there are so many details that I was glossing over or handwaving my way through that really require deep analysis and rigorous attention to detail. By the time I started elaborating on my twist model of quarks and started digging in, I got this massive sense of oversimplifying an extraordinarily complex problem. When I came up with that pole correlation for masses between electrons, up quarks, and down quarks, I thought–kewl, this is interesting! But then and now I have strong doubts it really could be that simple. The twist theory really doesn’t illuminate anything new–I thought it would, but it hasn’t. It’s just an idea, a vision, of how I thought things could work.
Several times I thought in the last month, don’t give up–it’s been fascinating to think about, I haven’t been trolled much for this speculation I’ve been doing, and it’s been fun posting about what I’m doing.
But now I’m thinking, life needs to move on, I’ve done what I wanted and it’s time to find a new path, pursue new adventures.
So, to my followers and other readers I say: May all your physics studies be as enlightening as this has been for me! May you find true insights that will lead to the betterment of the human condition. May you encourage young scientists or amateurs in your path to be honest and thorough without being too critical or harsh in their young ideas!
For me, it’s time to sail on, so–Goodbye to all!
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